Outer Calm, Pain Within

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released February 4, 2013

Outer Calm, Pain Within line-up:

N – vokills
MARTA – vocals
DEX – guitars
DOKI – guitars
MICHAL – bass
ROLAND – drums
STRONGHOLD – atmospherics

All music and lyrics by APRIL WEEPS
Recorded, engineered and mastered in 999th Studio by Michal Koleják and Jozef Minárik, September – December 2012
www.999th.eu

Art direction, artwork and booklet design executed by Marius Sachtikus Photography
www.sachtikus.com
www.disharmonystudio.com

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April Weeps Dunajská Streda, Slovakia

Who are we?

Hi. We're April Weeps, 7 individuals with different interests and lives, with different priorities regarding musical genres, who are joined through their love for music in an atmospheric metal band. We meet regularly for rehearsals at an unused nuclear shelter in a little town - Dunajská Streda in a little country - Slovakia. ... more

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Track Name: Sacrificial Rite
hear the call of the soil
to gather the mourns
to gather all their tears
hear the call of the soil
to gather the pain
of those sacrificed sons

harsh projections of human brain
tryin' to forget, all in vain
haunting us ten thousand years
gathering a sea of tears

voice from within
the time has come
for necklace of strings
for sculptures of flesh
for flames of piles
for rapture of thighs
for holding them tight
for starting the rite

in the name of mankind
in the name of science
through the flames in your eyes
through the rage in your heart
through the depths of your mind

in the name of all gods
in the name of welfare
through the flames in your eyes
through the rage in your heart
through the depths of your mind

and when you're done, you'll continue at any cost
'cause you are the founders of age-long holocaust
countless crowds and the world just grows colder
bent by your spineless emotional disorder
Track Name: Dream-Master
lay down now
leave your body here
embrace nothingness
let your mind wander into realm
of unknown powers
I'll lead you to my hands

I'm your master now
a guide of the soulless
my place was always here
between black and white
between the world and shadow

don't ever look back
to the isles of delusion
the flesh was always
just an illusion
soon everything you ever knew
will be forever gone

I'm your master now!
Track Name: Buried
I'm not strong enough to tell the truth
still haunted by the fear, that I killed the one in me
when he called for help I did it again
pushing him away saying, let me be... farewell!

after I crossed the invisible line
which had split us to you and I
after I made the final win
I have lost you with my sin

it was easier than fight
so no one needs to lose
believe the words others say
try it and become my friend

the destruction of all happened
faster than anything
feelings have become very strange
I want him back, the one I buried

I'm not strong enough to do it again
I'm not strong enough to tell him farewell

after I crossed the invisible line
which had split us to you and I
after I made the final win
I have lost you with my sin
Track Name: Outer Calm, Pain Within
I see the sun and I feel joy again
tell me where does this heavenly peace come from?
it's the only chance to rid my soul of pain
to control my life, to let it be done

I can't remember when I was happy last time
before all my life went down
and I know it won't last long
this state of mind

I'm saying goodbye to you but it's so hard
I'm greeting the end, awaiting there
six feet under cold windowpane

outer calm, pain within
chosen as victim of an everlasting torment

it's too late to say, this farewell
is too fast, but my act will tell
I'm whispering one last prayer on the sill
the moment of truth beyond free will

no, I'm losing control
forsaken by limbs (I'm) falling back inward
the circle of fate controlling all hard

(I've) tried so many times to escape the curse
reality shattering in bizarre curves

outer calm, pain within
chosen as victim of never-ending torment
Track Name: Forever Falling
he no longer hears my words, (I'm) leaving without a noise
how could he ever understand the uncertainty of my choice?
house of ghosts in which we lived will remain a memory
I'd rather take the scars with me than to die in agony

my tears are falling down as I sit wasted, so close, so far
I can see her face, but I can't reach it anymore
and the world has changed that day, the whispering of past will claim
something that I'm not...

the thorns of rose won't sting no more one last piece of my aching core
writings in the sands of times veiled by moments of our lies
I've never bent my head to fate, but this step is my ultimate

nothing ever on the mend
you won't ever comprehend
we are only barren minds

running forever, falling whenever our past scratches the door
sitting there wasted, once I have tasted sorrow of her silent soul

forever...
Track Name: Shards
sorrow is called my today's friend
coming from the place like no one else
holding his hand and letting him lead me
going somewhere, he's taking me

I will show you what you've missed
things you only see in your dreams
your silence shall be forever dismissed
now tell me the answer on your knees!

sorrow is gone, he was a dream
but the things he showed me were too real
words he said are carved in me
as inscription of the memorial
why does my past return to me
when it cannot be changed by some dream?

asking me why with plea in your eyes
I remember I knew the answer
quiet words remain unsaid
but forever sounding in my head

forgotten the words
I'll remember forever
lost the moments
of my endless hesitation

dreams, they fell to shards
(I'm) walking forward on these sharps
scars remind the unhealed wounds
made to man by his mistakes

one was the chance
that I've missed a million times
now I can't get rid of
those words in my mind

devil's smile, while you explained your lies
I remember I had a question
quiet words remain unsaid
but forever sounding in my head

every day I see the same situation
every day I’m trying to change my answer
'cause real for you is what you hear
and it doesn't matter what I feel

imagination is my enemy
attempting to stick the shards
confusing me
Track Name: Waiting For The Sun
sometimes I feel like deserted planet
there is nobody near and I'm disappearing
like steps in the sand I tried to made
everything's gone, sadness remained

in the darkness, where my being ends
sometimes I need to speak with myself
I'm trying to ignore the lies
forcing me to close my eyes

everything seems to be covered by snow
memories of past are frozen to stone
helpless body belongs to his head
who's the commander and who carries the pain

waiting so long for the sun to come
I need its light to save my soul
all the other stars that I've seen before
I left behind in my hope...

why we must get hurt in our lives to understand
that we all have feelings?
why we must get hurt from our lives to understand
that we are all equal?

sometimes I feel like deserted planet
that was burned between the walls of labyrinth
leaded by fate shortens the way
but it takes too long to get away
Track Name: In A Hurry
sorrow - no hope to escape
crashing - disintegrating brain
making false odds, why am I so brave?
sideway motion - deforming shape
time stopped by the collision
metalic smell reach my nose
my ears are hit by sudden noise
trying to focus my blured vision

liquid warmth of my blood on my skin
painful punch from the airbag on my chin
thoughtless, foolish decision is my sin
unable to say goodbye to the beloved and to the hated

stepping out from the vehicle
confused by the happening
any movement seems like a miracle
people are approaching

the world 'round falls apart
screams resonate in the far
witnesses not watching me
staring closely to my car

liquid warmth of my blood on my skin
painful punch from the airbag on my chin
thoughtless, foolish decision is my sin
unable to say goodbye to the beloved and to the hated

I turn back to where they gaze
spot my own lifeless face
realize there I lie
I know the reason why...
Track Name: Positive Energy
I was right there when the sun came down
the silence went black and the earth started to crack
changes seem to charge immensely through the city
built upon the clouds, upon minds grounded to pity

step by step, I see this world crumbling, deforming into
something fierce, I wonder how I've gotten here
my sight went black...

this is my creation
I don't have to obey
this is my shell made of
positive energy!

opening my eyes, quickly realized
I don't need to fear those beasts in my own mind

lights streamed down from skies
I'm greeting the sunrise
silence is denied
and the ground healed to its might
Track Name: Faded Memory
grey clouds are nailed to the sky
winter's weird-coloured delight
despair springs from its misty hands
little mind in distant lands

shades of the world fused into one
pure confusion, damage done
always wondered how it feels
now the feeling becomes too real

(you've) filled this room with memories
of (your) long forgotten former life
then the door has locked itself
and you've stayed here as prisoner of your mind

kneeling down in your prison cell
trembling as a child with fear
sworn to hide - you've had the taste
of what it's like to be someone's faded memory
Track Name: Pass Away
Instrumental