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Outer Calm, Pain Within

by APRIL WEEPS

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1.
hear the call of the soil to gather the mourns to gather all their tears hear the call of the soil to gather the pain of those sacrificed sons harsh projections of human brain tryin' to forget, all in vain haunting us ten thousand years gathering a sea of tears voice from within the time has come for necklace of strings for sculptures of flesh for flames of piles for rapture of thighs for holding them tight for starting the rite in the name of mankind in the name of science through the flames in your eyes through the rage in your heart through the depths of your mind in the name of all gods in the name of welfare through the flames in your eyes through the rage in your heart through the depths of your mind and when you're done, you'll continue at any cost 'cause you are the founders of age-long holocaust countless crowds and the world just grows colder bent by your spineless emotional disorder
2.
Dream-Master 04:05
lay down now leave your body here embrace nothingness let your mind wander into realm of unknown powers I'll lead you to my hands I'm your master now a guide of the soulless my place was always here between black and white between the world and shadow don't ever look back to the isles of delusion the flesh was always just an illusion soon everything you ever knew will be forever gone I'm your master now!
3.
Buried 03:48
I'm not strong enough to tell the truth still haunted by the fear, that I killed the one in me when he called for help I did it again pushing him away saying, let me be... farewell! after I crossed the invisible line which had split us to you and I after I made the final win I have lost you with my sin it was easier than fight so no one needs to lose believe the words others say try it and become my friend the destruction of all happened faster than anything feelings have become very strange I want him back, the one I buried I'm not strong enough to do it again I'm not strong enough to tell him farewell after I crossed the invisible line which had split us to you and I after I made the final win I have lost you with my sin
4.
I see the sun and I feel joy again tell me where does this heavenly peace come from? it's the only chance to rid my soul of pain to control my life, to let it be done I can't remember when I was happy last time before all my life went down and I know it won't last long this state of mind I'm saying goodbye to you but it's so hard I'm greeting the end, awaiting there six feet under cold windowpane outer calm, pain within chosen as victim of an everlasting torment it's too late to say, this farewell is too fast, but my act will tell I'm whispering one last prayer on the sill the moment of truth beyond free will no, I'm losing control forsaken by limbs (I'm) falling back inward the circle of fate controlling all hard (I've) tried so many times to escape the curse reality shattering in bizarre curves outer calm, pain within chosen as victim of never-ending torment
5.
he no longer hears my words, (I'm) leaving without a noise how could he ever understand the uncertainty of my choice? house of ghosts in which we lived will remain a memory I'd rather take the scars with me than to die in agony my tears are falling down as I sit wasted, so close, so far I can see her face, but I can't reach it anymore and the world has changed that day, the whispering of past will claim something that I'm not... the thorns of rose won't sting no more one last piece of my aching core writings in the sands of times veiled by moments of our lies I've never bent my head to fate, but this step is my ultimate nothing ever on the mend you won't ever comprehend we are only barren minds running forever, falling whenever our past scratches the door sitting there wasted, once I have tasted sorrow of her silent soul forever...
6.
Shards 06:57
sorrow is called my today's friend coming from the place like no one else holding his hand and letting him lead me going somewhere, he's taking me I will show you what you've missed things you only see in your dreams your silence shall be forever dismissed now tell me the answer on your knees! sorrow is gone, he was a dream but the things he showed me were too real words he said are carved in me as inscription of the memorial why does my past return to me when it cannot be changed by some dream? asking me why with plea in your eyes I remember I knew the answer quiet words remain unsaid but forever sounding in my head forgotten the words I'll remember forever lost the moments of my endless hesitation dreams, they fell to shards (I'm) walking forward on these sharps scars remind the unhealed wounds made to man by his mistakes one was the chance that I've missed a million times now I can't get rid of those words in my mind devil's smile, while you explained your lies I remember I had a question quiet words remain unsaid but forever sounding in my head every day I see the same situation every day I’m trying to change my answer 'cause real for you is what you hear and it doesn't matter what I feel imagination is my enemy attempting to stick the shards confusing me
7.
sometimes I feel like deserted planet there is nobody near and I'm disappearing like steps in the sand I tried to made everything's gone, sadness remained in the darkness, where my being ends sometimes I need to speak with myself I'm trying to ignore the lies forcing me to close my eyes everything seems to be covered by snow memories of past are frozen to stone helpless body belongs to his head who's the commander and who carries the pain waiting so long for the sun to come I need its light to save my soul all the other stars that I've seen before I left behind in my hope... why we must get hurt in our lives to understand that we all have feelings? why we must get hurt from our lives to understand that we are all equal? sometimes I feel like deserted planet that was burned between the walls of labyrinth leaded by fate shortens the way but it takes too long to get away
8.
In A Hurry 04:09
sorrow - no hope to escape crashing - disintegrating brain making false odds, why am I so brave? sideway motion - deforming shape time stopped by the collision metalic smell reach my nose my ears are hit by sudden noise trying to focus my blured vision liquid warmth of my blood on my skin painful punch from the airbag on my chin thoughtless, foolish decision is my sin unable to say goodbye to the beloved and to the hated stepping out from the vehicle confused by the happening any movement seems like a miracle people are approaching the world 'round falls apart screams resonate in the far witnesses not watching me staring closely to my car liquid warmth of my blood on my skin painful punch from the airbag on my chin thoughtless, foolish decision is my sin unable to say goodbye to the beloved and to the hated I turn back to where they gaze spot my own lifeless face realize there I lie I know the reason why...
9.
I was right there when the sun came down the silence went black and the earth started to crack changes seem to charge immensely through the city built upon the clouds, upon minds grounded to pity step by step, I see this world crumbling, deforming into something fierce, I wonder how I've gotten here my sight went black... this is my creation I don't have to obey this is my shell made of positive energy! opening my eyes, quickly realized I don't need to fear those beasts in my own mind lights streamed down from skies I'm greeting the sunrise silence is denied and the ground healed to its might
10.
Faded Memory 04:16
grey clouds are nailed to the sky winter's weird-coloured delight despair springs from its misty hands little mind in distant lands shades of the world fused into one pure confusion, damage done always wondered how it feels now the feeling becomes too real (you've) filled this room with memories of (your) long forgotten former life then the door has locked itself and you've stayed here as prisoner of your mind kneeling down in your prison cell trembling as a child with fear sworn to hide - you've had the taste of what it's like to be someone's faded memory
11.
Pass Away 03:30
Instrumental

credits

released February 4, 2013

Outer Calm, Pain Within line-up:

N – vokills
MARTA – vocals
DEX – guitars
DOKI – guitars
MICHAL – bass
ROLAND – drums
STRONGHOLD – atmospherics

All music and lyrics by APRIL WEEPS
Recorded, engineered and mastered in 999th Studio by Michal Koleják and Jozef Minárik, September – December 2012
www.999th.eu

Art direction, artwork and booklet design executed by Marius Sachtikus Photography
www.sachtikus.com
www.disharmonystudio.com

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April Weeps Dunajská Streda, Slovakia

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Hi. We're April Weeps, 7 individuals with different interests and lives, with different priorities regarding musical genres, who are joined through their love for music in an atmospheric metal band. We meet regularly for rehearsals at an unused nuclear shelter in a little town - Dunajská Streda in a little country - Slovakia. ... more

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